- I woke up at 12:15 p.m. and went to lunch at 1:30.
- I’ve done nothing until now.
- In a few minutes, I will join some of my schoolmates on the field and study for my math finals taking place on Thursday and Friday. I can hear the music, and I’m legitimately excited to just lay in the sun with people and do math problems.
- I will work out at 5:15, go to dinner, shower, and then go to the show that our first years are putting on for us second years: Appreciations. I’m ready to laugh :).
- After Appreciations is White Sensation (wiki it), our much-more-sober version of the European event.
I had forgotten why I cut ties in the first place. Luckily, it only took an hour of interaction to remind me for how he used to make me feel. It seems that he has surrounded himself around people who treat others the same way he did… and obviously, the way he still does.
- I always thought I was an open book, but I realized that I do have things to hide, which is both, in a sense, surprising and exciting.
- I miss my little sister terribly.
- I’m excited for this summer. I already have a to do list :). Speaking of which, eight days of the thirty-five consecutive day binge have passed successfully.
- I’m also excited to decorate my dorm room next year; I have a lot of stuff in mind for it.
- I’m one 10 lb. brick and 10 laps away from being a certified lifeguard - hell yeahh!
One of them had to do with the discrimination against Muslims in Europe. Honestly, reading about it made me so sad. I wish people would realize a couple of things… Firstly, you can only oppress a peaceful people so much before they resist and lash back; history has taught us a thing or two about how discrimination eventually works itself out: revolution (and in quite a few cases, not a peaceful one). Secondly, the double standard is ridiculous. Christians can wear their crosses, Orthodox Jews can wear their kippahs and have their curly sideburns going, and not-so-orthodox Jews can wear their David’s Star necklaces and bracelets. People are free to roam and display what they affiliate with. But once a hijab, burka, or beard is introduced, “No no no! Let’s not push your religion into people’s faces!” I agree with the sentiment that people shouldn’t go around parading their religious views so that the world can look at them and think, “Wow, what great faith they have!” The bible verse Facebook status updates annoy me as much as the next guy, but this is different - these people aren’t going around looking for compliments or good thoughts. It’s high time that Europe (as well as the U.S.) gets over the fact that a small group of extremists that affiliate with Islam attacked the Western world, especially when the white people making these legislative decisions would be baffled if they were ever discriminated against because of their own restrictive and judgmental organized religions. I can’t tell if this is a case of white privilege or not, but damn, it seems like it; if they knew what it felt like to be looked down upon everywhere they went…
The second thing I read was about how the UK has been funding the forced sterilization of low-income Indians. The doctors that “round up” the Indians in small, rural villages get added bonuses for each person they sterilize. Firstly, UK, I’m pretty damn sure you have more issues to worry about than what’s going on in India. They are no longer your colony, and the Eurozone is not doing so hot. How about you use that money to increase the living standards of the people within your own borders? Perhaps you can work on that aristocracy that I feel not too many people all thrilled about? I’m all for population control, but not in this way. What’s worse, people have died after getting sterilized because of poor practice. Sometimes I think Europe is way more fucked up than the U.S. ever was.
Finally, I read an article about how using the internet changes our brain. I thought it was going to be really informative and maybe interesting, but it wasn’t. However, there was an interesting fact within the article that I think is really neat to think about:
"The truth is that everything you do changes your brain. Everything. Every little thought or experience plays a role in the constant wiring and rewiring of your neural networks. So there is no escape." - Tom Stafford, BBC News
So, I will contemplate these things (especially the last bit, because only positive things can come from thinking about brain changes and daily life) and continue to look at the world with a classic condescending, what-the-fuck facial expression.
P.S. China and Russia are still fucking with the Security Council, but that’s hardly a surprise. I will reform the U.N., if it’s the last thing I do…
All of the American students have been informed about whether or not they will be attending UWC or not this coming fall… I am now a third year. My time is ending here, and to be honest, I can’t believe it. This is the closest reality to graduation being in a month I’ve had thus far.
I have grown so much here. I have learned how to be proud of myself for everything I am and what I aspire to be. I’ve learned about what type of people I relate to and how to make those I love really feel like they are loved. I have learned how to sacrifice. But this doesn’t mean there hasn’t been negatives; UWC has also brought out the worst in me. I’ve been harshly blunt, judgmental, rude, and I’ve lost a lot of spirituality. But all in all, these have been the best two years of my life. The people I want to come to my wedding are from the four corners of the world, not just Michigan. And all of this is being torn away from me… slowly now, but like duct tape on a hairy ass May 23.
"April showers bring May flowers." Yeah… that’s bullshit. That phrase did not take New Mexico into consideration. It’s just thunder and lightening now. In 30 days, the showers will come, and they’ll bring "good-byes" - the sort of thing you say when you’re really not sure you’ll see a person again.
I haven’t been this upset in a very long time. I don’t feel like I belong anywhere any longer, and I won’t until this August.